Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Blah...that's all I know to say. The boys both spent the night with Mama & Daddy last night and if I woke up once, I woke up ten times. Every time I'd wake up my stomach seems to be in a knot. Just not knowing what we are facing I guess. I mean, I know it's all going to be ok..I know that. It's just knowing that limiting Dalton's activity is best for him..that's just so hard to be facing. I've just been one big ball of emotion since Saturday...fine one minute, bawling the next. Just so ready for some answers and to get the ball rolling to get him better. Part of me just feels so aggravated...and I'm sorry for all of our church friends that are reading this...I know life isn't fair sometimes and I KNOW that you can look around and always find somebody way worse off than you are..but I just want to scream HAVEN'T WE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH THIS YEAR????????????? NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING that should have been simple has been simple. April 1st, the "nothing but a large cyst" nodule on Mama's thyroid...CANCER. April 26th, just mere hours after visiting Joey's brother, Jason, in the hospital...seeing him seemingly recovering from the infection that threatened to take his life...we get the call that he has died at age 27. Why can't life just be simple for us for once? Here we are at the end of a crappy, crappy year...yes, there were blessings and good things, but all in all, not what I would call one of our best years....and now we are starting another not knowing what we are facing with Dalton. He could do fine, but then there are kids that have dealt with this for years, going through periods of no activity, braces, casts, etc..it's just so overwhelming. Sorry for the pity party...I'm just not feeling the holiday spirit today.