Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Blah...that's all I know to say. The boys both spent the night with Mama & Daddy last night and if I woke up once, I woke up ten times. Every time I'd wake up my stomach seems to be in a knot. Just not knowing what we are facing I guess. I mean, I know it's all going to be ok..I know that. It's just knowing that limiting Dalton's activity is best for him..that's just so hard to be facing. I've just been one big ball of emotion since Saturday...fine one minute, bawling the next. Just so ready for some answers and to get the ball rolling to get him better. Part of me just feels so aggravated...and I'm sorry for all of our church friends that are reading this...I know life isn't fair sometimes and I KNOW that you can look around and always find somebody way worse off than you are..but I just want to scream HAVEN'T WE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH THIS YEAR????????????? NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING that should have been simple has been simple. April 1st, the "nothing but a large cyst" nodule on Mama's thyroid...CANCER. April 26th, just mere hours after visiting Joey's brother, Jason, in the hospital...seeing him seemingly recovering from the infection that threatened to take his life...we get the call that he has died at age 27. Why can't life just be simple for us for once? Here we are at the end of a crappy, crappy year...yes, there were blessings and good things, but all in all, not what I would call one of our best years....and now we are starting another not knowing what we are facing with Dalton. He could do fine, but then there are kids that have dealt with this for years, going through periods of no activity, braces, casts,'s just so overwhelming. Sorry for the pity party...I'm just not feeling the holiday spirit today.


  1. My dear friend....

    "Some through the water, some through the flood, some through the fire but ALL through the blood. Some through great sorrow but God gives a the night season and all the day long!"

    I love you!
    Romans 8:28

  2. Nothing as profound as what the person above me wrote, but I think of something that a beloved high school teacher of mine used to say: This too shall pass. That teacher had leukemia and missed part of my junior year while she was recovering from a bone marrow transplant. So when we'd get upset about something, or be frustrated or scared about anything, she would always say that phrase to us. Little comfort, I know, but I find myself returning to it sometimes even though that was 20 years ago when I was in her class.

    ((((((((((hugs))))))))))))) I truly hope 2009 is a much better year for you guys.


  3. Lori, I know that you have been through a lot this year and this was the last thing you needed on your plate right now, but I am praying for you and for Dalton and I hope that the outcome for him is good.

    I wanted to share with you some verses that a good friend of mine shared with me during my second battle with preeclampsia and during our time in the NICU with Carter. I hope that they will help you as they helped me.

    Psalm 121: I lift up my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip - he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord watches over you - the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm - he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and your going both now and forevermore.

    Philippians 4: 4-7, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."

    2 Corinthians 4:7, "But we have these treasures in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not ashamed; struck down, but not destroyed."

    1 Corinthians 10:13, "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

    Thinking of you, and praying that 2009 is a much better year for you. (((hugs)))


  4. Thanks girls...your words have all meant a lot to me and I am feeling much better. Faye, I read your comment earlier in the day and it has played over and over in my mind. Thanks again everyone for taking the time to comment and pass on these scriptures....they definetly help.

  5. Hi,

    Sorry to hear about your son's calve perthe. Our son got the diagnose when he was 7 years old and we were desperate - not knowing what to do. At first we had a really bad&ignorant doctor - so we changed to another doctor we got recommended. He did the diagnose - and was really understanding and honest about the perspective. He basicly told us that we couldn't do anything besides wait - and that our sons was the best to limit his normal movement.

    We got some crutches for him to use - and he was told to never go without these (this was basically to 'limit' im from running a lot - a 7 year old boy loves to run) - we also got a wheelchair - but this was only to use on longer trips in school - not on a daily basis.

    After 2½ year we stopped using the crutches and the wheelchair - and he is now 12 years old and is only slightly limited in his normal movement ( not visible unless you know it)

    The 2½ years was hard - but children are really good to adapt. The best decicion we made was to be really open about the condition - and we actally send a mail to all parents in his class describing the desise - what to expect and what to be aware of. This was really good for our son - and be was backed up 100% by ALL kids and parents in the class.

    All this just to tell You that You shouldnt give up - and I wish You your your family all good in 2009.

    Kind regards
    Morten / Denmark

  6. Lori
    I'm so sorry to hear of your sons diagnosis. But you and your family are in my prayers. Remember that God is still in the business of miracles! I'm praying for one for your family.
    Take care and know that you are loved by many many people.
    Fredda Owens